Another effect I experienced was the merging of various senses. Particularly, it felt like the sense of smell and sense of handholdinguality had completely merged. The 'smell' I described early had gotten so intense that I felt like I was bathing it. I would describe further, but I can't. Not because I have forgotten since, but because I had forgotten right after it happened. I remember 'waking up' at about 9PM with my first thought being 'the feeling is starting to fade away'. I couldn't remember a single thing that happened in the last twelve or so hours. I had spent twelve whole hours in a deep trance doing nothing but staring at CRBA. It was truly like the time dimension had disappeared, and that I was thinking unimaginable things, because suddenly, I could remember anything. Like I had been asleep, but I was awake the whole time. The following few days I had only started to realize how bizarre what had just happened was. And I continued to feel as if each morning, that it could have all been in a dream. But days turned into months and now years, and I still haven't woken up. So that begs the question, am I still just in one gigantic dream? In the almost two years since, I actually have not looked at CRBA almost at all, aside from a handful of designated images, because I want to preserve it for if I feel like getting into one of these trances. I don't to ruin them by looking at them casually. In the following few months after first discovering CRBA, I looked more into AVCHonline. I found various names he used, all of which pen names in different languages. I discovered many other things, including what appeared to be the origin story of CRBA. In 2012, Sean post this artwork (https://www.deviantart.com/avchonline/art/Little-Sean-dance-ballet-330812874) telling the story of how his mother forced him to dress like a little girl. It seems that this later inspired the CRBA series, with the first CRBA artworks being drawn in late 2015, but only being posted around March 2016. I also discovered this very somber one: https://www.deviantart.com/avchonline/art/Trying-to-say-goodbye-330615364 Over time, I became more acquainted with Sean's other series. Including the sonic series, the TrixieSnoopy series, the Lucyan series, the comics featuring his OC, the Umamusume series, the Equion series, the BOV series, and several others. I also began discovering his music on SoundCloud and on YouTube. There were many music series too, the legend of canterlot, the music poems, the CRBA music, glory of equestria, PonyCal, and many others. Fast forward to September 2025, I launched a site to catalog all of the CRBA artwork (that was not lost) in one place and in the highest quality. About a month later, I launched companion imageboard for the site. https://crba.dedyn.io https://ib.crba.dedyn.io

>BTW, is there a way to use the snow JS on this on vichan? I've been meaning to add a snow JS on CRBAchan, but couldn't find one. They're the css snowflakes https://pajasevi.github.io/CSSnowflakes/

>>11476 for the gallery, could there be an option to navigate through ID number and/or chronological upload date? it would be useful in cases such as when a new artwork is uploaded.

>>11483 >for the gallery, could there be an option to navigate through ID number and/or chronological upload date? Sure! I'll do that at some point. It shouldn't be hard given that I have the upload dates for (nearly) all of them. >it would be useful in cases such as when a new artwork is uploaded. Unfortunately, Sean has not posted any CRBA artwork for many years now.

Hello, as promised I tried drew to draw fanart. It's not very good, but at least I tried. https://ib.crba.dedyn.io/mod.php?/crba/res/189

>>10880 Join an anime club!

>>10880 It's too hard atp almost everyone's performative, I'm struggling with this too What're your interests hikarin

Honestly im lucky im just surrounded with people like me somehow, idk tho i just see someone drawing or looking at a charater i know and just like.. come up to them- or if i think they might be nice. (I only come up to people i see often tho so dont think im brave or sum)

>>10880 I consider it impossible considering the circumstances, but who knows, yours might be different.

>>11471 Sounds like a good year you had, happy for you hikarin My 2025 was very boring and uneventful compared to last year but nothing really bad happened thankfully

>>11471 >has a gf Leave, normie handholding haver.

my 2025 was okay ^_^ the last portion of the year was the best tho since i met someone really special !!!!!!! trip to europe was also pretty cool

>>11479 Sounds nice, where in Europe did you go to?

>>11477 i'm not a normie at heart i swear, i have just adapted to operate in their system. believe me kudasai

i signed a wish contract with that creature and now i got balls up my ass

>>11465 What does this mean?

>>11458 HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH???? WHAT THE HECK???????????

>>11459 >>11460 You see, a cookie is sweet like a womans VAGINA. The cookies crumbs are akin to droplets of pussy juice, delicious like nectar. This is why tetos pussy = cookie. What a tasty treat.

>>11462 what about having teto's actual cookies mixed with love nectar instead? you get twice the good taste that way.

>>11463 It's weird how I know which anime you're referencing, yet I've never seen it.

>>10188 wowa, whats next? 2026?

>>11419 2026 is canceled, sorry. We're skipping right to 2027.

>>11441 Maybe this is a good thing because I hate this decade, although I don't expect the 2030s to be much better

>>11441 Uwaa! that means ill be much older next year

>>11456 Please continue to stay young

>>11426 My Thanksgiving was very good. The food was really great. Nice to see my family too.

im THANKFUL FOR HIKARI3 AND ANIME GIRLS

>>11426 What should I even be thankful for?!

>>11438 There is lots to be thankful for. You are alive and well, likely in a developed country. You are able to experience life with its many ups and downs and make it into what you want. You're open to good food and fellowship and fulfillment, and the journey to find those things. No blackpilling on my hikarinchan.

>>11439 Maybe if everyone will feed me, be my company, and get me a good job

I learned to drive manual when I was 16 and never touched a car again because walking or taking a bus is easier. I enjoy those 15 minutes of doing nothing and just looking at the city.

>>11358 move to some place on the east coast. more towns there have mixed use zoning so you wouldn't have to drive as much as you would elsewhere

>>11370 What if I'm checked out?

it is bad in theory, but think about it, all the pain about insurance, taxes, finding the car, the ac not working. If you have a job within walking distance, I say you're fine

>>11395 Also car hijacking, car vandalism, parking fees, planned obsolescence with cryptic maintenance knowledge for exactly your car model and the corresponding rip-offs for maintenance and repair

What's keeping you up? Do you normally have trouble sleeping?

>>11435 don't know what exactly is keeping me up, i just cannot sleep, although sometimes, when i do manage to go to sleep, i'll wake up too shortly after (for a grand total of like 2 hours of sleep).

>>11436 Have you talked to a doctor about it? Do any of the go-to sleeping habits help? Like reducing screen time before bed, exercising, what have you.

>>11338 I used to smoke alot and also like alcohol alot. Though due to like, health issues and well my partner i stopped smoking entirely! i used to snap off the filters off malboro reds tho...

>>11420 i could never snap off the filters of ciggies im too much of a pussy

>>11421 Yeah it's kinda disgusting I will admit! I used to like smoking filterless in general, but I never really bought a tar guard. I do kinda miss an early morning cigarette with a good black coffee.

i like mushrooms but only around summer time since the weather really alters my emotions in that state

>>11427 nice! I just picked up 7 grams to take over the next few months, my first time as well